The postman came bearing gifts yesterday, my Ki is finally here!

My feet were barely through the front door before I was in the box pulling out cables and start up guides to get set up! I’ve been so excited to get the armband on to start collecting some data which I’m pretty sure is going to conclude how bad/unhealthy things have got! My Ki needs to stay on my arm for around 23 hours each day, it’ll record my every move and only removed when I need to shower. I also have to update my food diary in what’s called the ‘activity manager’ to give an honest account of what I’ve munched my way through throughout eat day.

To celebrate the arrival I invited my amazing mum round to be my official weigh in/measurement taking monitor. We attempted to do something I would never normally do, take ‘before’ photos so I’ll be able to see for myself any progress, rather than just having a sheet of numbers. I also never seem to see any difference when I lose weight which I put down to being a FFP – as Kelly Osborne puts it, a ‘a former fat person’. Yes, I once was even fatter than I am now and the FFP is always there making you believe that no matter how big or small you are you’re always going to fat! Anyway, back to the ‘before’ photos, I was horrified and gobsmacked looking at the results which have only made me all the more determined! I’ve become a master at hiding my flab after years of practise so there with it all laid bare was perhaps the cherry on my fat lardy cake!

Today feels quite strange, like the calm before the storm and I know the reason for why. Ki Performance will be for the next seven days conducting a ‘Lifestyle Audit’ therefore this gives me a really good opportunity to continue as I am for the next week to understand exactly the errors of my ways. It’s a scary prospect and one I kind I think I could avoid by making drastic changes to my diet and exercise now to get praise and lead KiPerformance to believe that I’m fat for no reason whatsoever. I’m tempted to go hell for leather, just because I’m feeling in the zone by cutting my calories right back and booking in to every available spinning class – this is the crazy type of yo-yoing that I mean. Another would be to do nothing but drink meal replacement milkshakes, a very quick fix but I really know it’s not the answer. If I really want to learn from these next seven days to change my life I have to do as I would have always done, eat what I would normally eat in a day which is often too much and exercise as much as usually would which no surprises if just not enough.. Otherwise what’s the point? This will just be another diet and I’m done with diets. I’m doing it the hard way, because it’s the only way. So, for the next seven days it’s just me, doing what’s made me the way I am.

It’s time to get to sleep; my Ki is telling me I need eight hours, so with my armband securely in place for the first time I’m off to bed!